Monday, January 31, 2011

The Ex Files - Part 2

BOY #2.....
19- My high school sweetheart. He was a senior when I was a sophomore and it was such a big deal that he would even notice me. I was head over heels for that boy. He was hilarious, our relationship was so easy. We never fought, we never argued, we rarely disagreed about anything. We dated all through my sophomore year and then he went off to college. We decided to do the long distance thing, but it was a lot harder than I expected. Especially when 5 came back into my life. 

19 and I before prom - Spring 2004

5 started his sophomore year of high school when I started my junior year (our high school is sophomore, junior, senior). For months, we hung out every day. We became best friends, and even though we were completely attracted to each other we didn't do anything about it because I had a boyfriend. But this whole time, 19 was off being in college a couple of hours away...we had completely different schedules, rarely got to talk or see each other and we began to fight. We argued all of the time and even when he was in town we wouldn’t get along because we were both struggling with the distance and what it had done to our relationship. Things finally got to a point where 5 told me that he was in love with me and wanted to be with me, so he asked me to make a decision, pick one or the other. And I made the wrong one. 
And in all honesty, I was in love with 5. It was like nothing I had ever felt before (granted, I was sixteen/seventeen at this point). I chose 19 though and to this day, no one understands why I did it. We had been together almost 2 years at this point, my family loved him, his family loved me, I was planning on going to the college he went to... it was all planned out, it was the easy choice. I was an idiot. I realized that, a few months later when I couldn't get 5 out of my head, or my heart for that matter. I broke up with 19 and from that point on I tried, every single day, for over a year, to get 5 to give me another chance...but he wouldn't. Almost to the point that I was mildly stalking him.... but I was 17, give me a break here. I went to every one of his baseball games “because my best friend was a manager”... I drove by his house, maybe daily. I wrote him the longest love letter and put it in his mailbox. Slightly (completely, 100%)  embarrassing when I look back on it. I went to every thing that I knew he would go to and every single time he totally and completely rejected me.
5 and I - Fall 2004. Looks like an intense convo, wonder what it's about.....

He hated me, or at least it seemed like it. I broke his heart, so he wanted to break mine. From that point on, he would do some terrible thing or say some terrible thing to me and then I would reciprocate. It was a vicious cycle, and by the end of it, I was broken. So when I started college, I moved out of the town 5 was in and I was determined to meet a guy who was nothing like him. Then came B.

Monday, January 24, 2011

The Ex Files - Part 1

I'm at a point where I realized that my love life is literally the absolute best that it has ever been. Ever. This was a really big realization for me, because just a little more than a year ago I was engaged to someone who was obviously not The One. The more I think about it, it's really so funny how things turn out. So I decided to go back through some of relationships in my life to show you just what I mean when I say funny. This is is the first in a series that will include 3 important relationships in my life that have seriously shaped me and have led me to where I am now. 
BOY #1......
5- We're going to call this boy 5, because that was his high school football number... I was a football manager so I really relate people to their numbers, but that's beside the point. 5 and I met in December of 2000. Our church did Christmas caroling at nursing homes every Christmas, and my mom and I went as usual. 5 wouldn't stop staring at me, but not in a creepy stalker way... He was a grade younger than me so I was not about to go out with him. Anyway, he was one persistent son of a ..... And the thing is, I like people who go after what they want. So when he started asking me to be his girlfriend over and over and over, every time I said no, but finally, in April, I told him yes, just so he would leave me alone. I planned on breaking up with him in a week, which turned into five months. To make a long story short,  his mom thought that he was too serious about me for our age and they weren't speaking because of it so I broke up with him. He wasn't thrilled, but the reason that this is significant to me is because he was the first boy, and maybe the only one that I ever truly cared about more than I cared about myself. I wanted what was best for him, and I've learned a lot from that.  

5 and I in 2003

Friday, January 21, 2011

Fill in the blank friday

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1. My favorite quote is  "In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different"-Coco Chanel

2. A bad habit I have is fidgeting when I'm nervous and talking too fast. Like sometimes, I talk so fast that it literally soundslikethis.

3. The first time I felt like a "grown up" was the night I moved into the house I just bought. I was there all by myself, unpacking and just sitting there thinking, "how in the world did I get here?"

4. Weekends are the best things ever. I chose to work in a field where we generally are open on weekends but luckily my job just has me working weekdays for the most part. On the weekends in the winter I never want to leave the house and in the summer I never want to go inside a house. Why can't every day be a weekend?

5. When I was a child I wished my name was Lizzie. Like Lizzie McGuire. Anyone else remember that show?

6. I wish it was summer right now. Except for the fact that I still would like to lose a solid 10 lbs before summer. So actually, I wish I was 10 pounds lighter and it was summer : )

7. A secret I have is well if I told you, it wouldn't be a secret then would it?

I hope you all have a wonderful WEEKEND! 

Get excited for Monday, I will be starting a little relationship history post. Hopefully it will be as entertaining to you as it was to me. 

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Sweet Success

I have finally finished my headboard project all on my own! I don't think I've ever been so proud. 

The 2'' foam had to be cut to fit the plywood.

I used this adhesive to hold the foam to the plywood- but it didn't work near as well as I had anticipated.

I laid the fabric down, then the batting, and put the plywood (foam side down) on the batting & fabric.

After pulling the fabric taunt, I used a staple gun to hold down all of the edges and voila! headboard!

The only minor detail left is hanging the headboard on the wall. Now, I'll be honest, I'm a little concerned about this. The plywood that I used for the headboard is 1/2'' thick and it's pretty heavy by itself, but when you add on foam, batting, fabric and a crap-ton of staples.... I'm just hoping my wall can hold it all. But my handy-man says that it will be just fine. And no, my boyfriend is not the handy-man I speak of...although he is quite handy. I am having a construction guy from my work mount the headboard on the wall, just because if something were to go wrong, I would rather be mad at him than the bf. But, if it hangs on the wall just fine then this project might just be the most well spent $100 of my life. 

Hopefully this will be on my wall by the end of the week so I can show you all a picture of the beautiful finished product.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Wee Bit Wednesday

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{onehave you ever been on tv?
yes, it's a very proud moment in my life. the hansons were playing live and i was in the background. my mom taped it. i really need to find that and relive my .00143729 seconds of fame.

{twowhat was the best movie you saw last year?
ohhh that's a toughie. i'm not one of those people who remembers every movie and i certainly can't quote them but i'll tell you what... i saw a lot of movies last year and most of them were really really good.

{threedo you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
it's different every single night. sometimes tucked in, sometimes not. and how i fall asleep with them is definitely not how they end up in the morning... more times than not, they are on the floor when i wake up.

{fourdo you cut coupons?
sometimes, and then i forget about them and they expire. ugh.

{fivedo you ever count your steps when you walk?
sometimes. i also try not to step on cracks. weird?

{sixwhat sauce do you dip your chicken nuggets in?
ketchup, if anything.

{sevendo you have any magazine subscriptions?
negative, but i should. i read entirely too much people, us weekly, cosmo and glamour. these are the things i need for my birthday. (which is less than 4 months away!!!)

{eightwhen was the last time you wrote a letter on paper?
not that long ago... i like to write and it helps me express things i can't say, but i usually throw it away after.

{ninewhat’s your favorite fruit pie?
mmm cherry. or peach. or apple. i like them all. now i want one. thanks.

{tenblack olives or green olives?
green, soaked in vodka. it's been that kind of day.

you deserve it

"You, yourself, 
as much as anybody else 
in the entire universe, 
deserve your love and affection."

No, I didn't fail on the DIY headboard, but I ended up having to work all weekend so the project is being put off until this coming weekend... I did however purchase everything needed for it!!!

Friday, January 7, 2011


MIUY = mess it up yourself. FYI.

This weekend I finally have time to do something that I have been wanting to do for awhile. Since moving into my new home, we have been trying to decorate and slowly but surely, the house is getting there.... every room but my room. It has been left as one of the last tasks because people don't see it as much as the rest of the house. But to be honest, every minute that I am in it I think about how it needs to be decorated and put together and it is driving me absolutely crazy. So this weekend, I am making a headboard.

I want to make an upholstered, tufted headboard. I have decided on a brown fabric and gold buttons to match my new bedding that I recently purchased at Kohl's. I'm sure you all love it, and you can purchase it on the website if you want to be a copy cat.

I have researched DIY upholstered headboards for awhile and this awesome website was so helpful! Now- this is my first real attempt at DIY so wish me luck!


If this blog post has been deleted Monday and I don't mention making my own headboard, that means I failed. In which case, we shall pretend that none of this ever happened.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Don't Judge...

Best Beer Pong/Flip Cup Table Ever

But this is exactly what I asked bf to make me for Christmas. I have been wanting one for as long as I can remember, I mean... since I turned 21, of course. A beer pong table. I think he thought I was crazy when I told him. Apparently most girls don't ask for beer pong tables as Christmas presents... but if you knew my friends, you would understand. Hey, we like games, what's wrong with that??? I didn't think he would actually make it because it was more time consuming than just buying a present but he did... and he did a WONDERFUL job. I couldn't be any happier with the final product.

And yes, it's an OSU table. Go Pokes!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

My Buddy

I've decided that another of my New Year's resolutions is to try to take a picture every day, of anything. Just something to remember the year by. It's January 5th and I've already missed a day... typical. 

Nonetheless, today my picture is of Buddy. Buddy is bf's dog that he found at the lake over a year ago. While bf is away on a boy's snowboarding trip, Buddy is staying with me and being my buddy. Ha-ha.

 Having him around makes me really miss having a dog. He cuddles, he keeps me warm at night, he gives me lots of kisses, he doesn't judge when I look like crap or when my room is messy (he actually likes it better because it gives him more places to hide his bone). He might just be a better version of my boyfriend. I may not give him back. Mark my words.

Buddy hopes you all have a wonderful day! : )

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

New year, new you.

Part of the Dirty Dozen- New Years Eve
This year was by far the best New Years that I have ever had. I had my best friends from high school, the Awesome Foursome, my best friends from college, the Dirty Dozen, along with my sweet boyfriend all in one place. All of the people that I enjoy spending time with the most were all in the same place as we rang in the New Year. I couldn't have asked for a better start to 2011.

Couple Pic- New Years Eve
I really have high hopes for this year. 2010 was a year full of heartache, confusion, joy, peace, love.  I began 2010 in the most confusing, frustrating and heartbreaking place that I had ever been in my life and I left 2010 in the most happy, peaceful and loving place that I have ever been in. Talk about a 180... every single minute of last year was surprising to me, I had absolutely no idea what was going to happen next but I thank the Lord every day for all of those things because I couldn't ask to be in a better place than I am right now.

So here's my New Year's resolution for 2011:
"Live daringly, boldly, fearlessly."
 -Henry J. Kaiser